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Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
1:07 pm	I am not my ghost My loneliness pours like wine And everyone raises their glass to take a sip This intoxication I call mine. As I sing with burning eyes and frozen lips There's broken limbs and tiny moving parts And my footsteps drop to the wrong rhythm And there's nothing in my heart but a shard And I stumble blindly foreword towards him And I hear the tiny bells of morning I try talking but can only whisper And the fog on my window is forming And my heart is playing twister Humming down the hall Filling the air with disease And all my fallacies fall And I ask you to infect me (Comment on this)
12:51 pm	A Siren's Song It's not hard to catch fish when you're a merman Catatonic and knowing nothing but their school But I collect pearls Sparkles of sand who've become beautiful through pain And sometimes I question my own love I have to offer When you least expect it I will awaken you from your sleep You will rise to my music and drift towards me Your head will bash against rocks and water will fill your lungs Blue and silent and pure No one can swim and keep up with me No one can go to depths I've dived No one can speak the dolphins's wordless tounge And I used to hate myself for it If only, If only I had legs I could dance with you But you are all merely men And I am Posiedon My sweet aphexiated prince Cut your sides and make gills I will teach you to breathe I will stay here with my open hand Singing my song Come join me Realize what you might sacrifice With blind faith And we'll see if you're my messiah (Comment on this)
12:51 pm	Finger Prints I want to be like braille between your fingers When a vow turns into obsession I bring it close to my lips Two finger prints on the back of my tongue And my will is shifting to iron Such a beautiful delusion And I'm holding onto it Who am I to be so unsatisfied And bring passive resistance against myself But theres a parasite inside me You placed the seed and I fed it I want to go back to the white shadows And dance wickedly to its wild music I'm placing myself on my own broken altar Of such an irrational religion Begging malevolent gods to consume my flesh There's an earthquake inside me I can't control But it brings me closer to my false nirvana When Samson cuts his hair And turns against God himself Just to be loved That's when he becomes a hero (Comment on this)
12:50 pm	Whisper You made me nervous Two souls picked at random Deadsy filled the air And I asked you your name And you whispered softly in my ear "I like you. You're cute" And I let your hand wrap mine You made me fever And I would drown in that laugh That one you had when I was sixteen Fingers in tangled hair Embraced by seraphim And you whispered softly in my ear "I love you. You're beautiful" And I let you inside of me You made me sing I tried so hard to keep the sky from falling And you tore me from my sleep I was blind and you were thirsty I'd have drained my blood To water your flowers And you whispered softly in my ear "I don't love you. You mean nothing" And I let you keep my heart And I've been wandering so long now Searching for any man who will whisper In a land filled with screams And I glide through them in mute Withering away in discontent (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:49 pm	Pearl I've painted for myself an illusion One I've prayed for in vain All I want is a connection Don't be so foolish boy Don't be so naive I desire a pearl locked deep in the security of a clam The same one that spit me out And he speaks to me in subtle and safe words And lights the spark of interest Maybe I've found a kindred spirit Don't be so foolish boy Don't be so naive He's locked to his foundation more than he claims He's filled with nothing but empty hopes Infecting words and unfulfilling comitment How splendid it would be if true I wish it was Don't be so foolish boy Don't be so naive And now I'm shifting gears I can't believe a coward I was uneasy from the beginning And I'm not shy to speak my mind I need to wipe this heart off my sleeve I can't be a foolish boy I can't be so naive You and him don't seem too very different Your selfishness spews without considering anyone Turn back now. You're too coward for this I too will retreat And I'll crawl back into my sheets And wait for this to pass How naive To think that someone so unfaithful Could ever bring me happiness Oh how foolish I am To still want you In all my selfishness (Comment on this)
12:48 pm	Indigo You braid your hair like hemp And teach me the language of the earth You put me on my axis And whisper the secrets locked inside me I am just a child You told me this morning That it's amazing That someone so young Could be filled with such wisdom It's because you are so young to me guru Because I've danced on the back of divinity And I have drank from the wells of consciousness And you paint me a shade of indigo With such serious eyes I am an oak tree inside this sprout Can't you see that you are my garden Please don't take it for granted Even if we are on different levels Even if we don't connect I only desire water and my intentions are pure I want to dig my roots into your soil And soak up all that you can give I'm so thirsty under this flood I am slowly blossoming inside All my muscles dance in union On unbalanced feet and clumbsy hands Upon these sacred grounds There is someone who lives inside me A facet on this crystal I call myself I am being born with my own death And in my old age I will be so much younger. (Comment on this)
12:44 pm	Eros Persona We had a child together A dim aura of a conversation The glow from the screen is making me weary Twelve steps is all I ever seem to need My fingers contort at the thought of this idea As the corners of my lips defy your gravity I'm a stumbling imperfection Crippled arachnid But these imperfections are mine and mine alone It's what i must work with and what I must love Inside my mind the toxins grow like a weed And I'm so hesitant darling And I'm trying to find some peace of mind Don't you understand that confusion is an epileptic epiphany Brief and designed for the right occasion A chaos so small you can put it in a locket It travels with me blackening my chakras I hide behind my photoshop and raw verses Expressing something that will never be heard Something no one can ever comprehend Something that lies deeper in my veins than my insecurities Because no one can be an empath to this which is mine So sing softly for me sweet Eros And bring the inverted coast closer Soft on your silver wings And we'll see if fate unfolds once more And if somehow you can total the score (Comment on this)